I'm back!
I can't believe how little I have blogged in the past several months. The clearing of the 'grief fog', as my best friend calls it, brings perspective and rejuvenation.
Grief is a crazy thing and it doesn't always will rarely look and act like you expect it to. Looking back I know I was grieving long before he was gone. Cancer sucks and the last months of in and out the hospital and rehab and then hospice were a roller coaster. (I don't recommend having shingles on top of metastasized melanoma.)
Now he is 'hanging out with Jesus', as my six year old puts it and we are at peace, knowing he is no longer hurting.
So, with the bulk of the expected funk ('cause I know it will still creep up on me) out of the way (or at least until summer when we are used to having him nearby to hang out with) I am starting routines that hadn't found their groove since we moved. (The stage four diagnosis came about the same time. As did my daughter's epilepsy diagnosis.)
Guess I have all kinds of fuel for the writing fire, which is good - since March is coming!
I am sorry for your loss. Life has put a lot on your shoulders. Getting back to writing will hopefully help you in many ways.
ReplyDeleteWhat a year it's been for you, Kristi. I'm sorry you've had so much on your plate to deal with. I cannot imagine how heavy your heart has been feeling. I hope that writing lightens the load. (And I'm glad to have you back with us.)
ReplyDeleteKristi, I'm so sorry to hear of all your loss. I'm glad you have given yourself time to truly grieve, and I hope your continued path towards healing is a smooth one (perhaps with much writing).
ReplyDeleteKristi, I'm so sorry to hear of all your loss. I'm glad you have given yourself time to truly grieve, and I hope your continued path towards healing is a smooth one (perhaps with much writing).
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. I think it takes a long, long time for grief to go away-- my dad died twenty years ago and I still miss him pretty much every day, even though it's not a sharp pain, more just like a constant dull ache that I'm kind of used to living with . I love Ralph Fletcher's quote from FIG PUDDING:
ReplyDelete“When someone you love dies, you get a big bowl of sadness put down in front of you, steaming hot. You can start eating now, or you can let it cool and eat it bit by bit later one. Either way, you end up eating the whole thing. There's really no way around it.”
― Ralph Fletcher, Fig Pudding
So sorry for your loss. I think it takes a long, long time for grief to go away-- my dad died twenty years ago and I still miss him pretty much every day, even though it's not a sharp pain, more just like a constant dull ache that I'm kind of used to living with . I love Ralph Fletcher's quote from FIG PUDDING:
ReplyDelete“When someone you love dies, you get a big bowl of sadness put down in front of you, steaming hot. You can start eating now, or you can let it cool and eat it bit by bit later one. Either way, you end up eating the whole thing. There's really no way around it.”
― Ralph Fletcher, Fig Pudding
What a year. I'm so sorry for your loss - and I hope that your writing will be a comfort to you. I'll be holding you in the light.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your post. Tears and hugs!! And, yes, March is coming!
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