Monday, March 4, 2019

Slow Learner (4/31)

4 of 31 - SOLSC 2019

Cincinnati, Ohio on a chilly fall evening in 1998 I perused a book store in a mall, not because I loved books - which I did, but because the setting sun was too bright for the pain that was in my head.

That's the first time I can tell you I had something that was more than a headache.

I was diagnosed in 2000 and began my journey to living the best life I can with migraine disease. The doctor whom I worked with back then insisted that I take some medication at the first indication of an attack. I have had hundreds, perhaps thousands, of opportunities to practice my learning and yet I still have moments, like this one...

As I walk from the bedroom to the laundry room I become aware of something. After a moment of pausing I realize the feeling all too well, but think 'oh, I can drink a bunch of water, not lift anything, and I'll be OK'. 

Why have I not learned that if I take one over-the-counter pill at that point I could probably nip it in the bud without the need to go to abortive medication?! Why do I still fight the idea of taking a pill as being something 'bad'?! Why do I think the outcome this time will be any different than all of the hundreds of times before?

I must be a slow learner.


  1. Living with a illness means that we have to be proactive. I am sorry that you are going through this ordeal. My friends had Botox treatments for their migraine issue. It helped in both cases. I have gone the route of over the counter supplements prescribed by the doctors beside my regular regimen. Pain is not a pleasant experience - this I know.

  2. Ouch. Kristi you’ve captured the sentiments of anyone that lives with chronic illness Thanks for sharing. You aren’t alone.

  3. I have a chronic disease and have to take daily medication for management. At first I fought the idea. Wondering why someone so young would have to be dependent upon the medicine. Now I cherish it. I grateful to feel good and to have the help of medicine. That said, a balance of taking care of oneself (diet, exercise, self-care) is also important.

    Your post reminds me of my journey and I wish you the very best on yours.

  4. I appreciate your post because it's specific and we can feel your specific pain and struggle, but you also speak about a universal struggle we all face. Why do I keep making the same mistake expecting a different result? Well done!

  5. I don't think it's about being a slow learner {smile} because I've been there and done that, too. Take care of yourself!

  6. Not a slow learner at all....just endlessly hopeful. Have compassion for yourself, and be well!

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